Since I first posted about exclusively pumping (EP), I've been amazed at the support and questions that have poured in. So first and foremost, I want to say thank you. Secondly, please don't hesitate to contact me if you ever have questions about EP! I will gladly answer and help you in anyway I can.
Now onto the update. Where are we now? Well, we met with an ENT and instead of diving in for a tongue tie clip, I wanted her to evaluate. She claims Liviana has a small tongue-tie, but it seems thick. However, she doesn't believe it should cause her any issues. OHMYWORD. I am so over the confusion and the ever-changing answers. So for now, her tongue is remaining untouched. I won't clip unless I can find someone well versed in TT and even ULT (upper lip ties). Sorry, but this chick didn't leave me feeling confident in her answers.
And yes, that means I'm still pumping. BUT. I have over 2400 oz. of breast milk in the deep freeze (holy moly!) with only a small portion left to fill. And no, E won't let me get another one. So I'm facing some major decisions. I can drop another pumping session (I'm only pumping 4x/day right now and averaging 45 oz./day) OR I can try to get Liv back on the breast. Which option do I prefer? Number 2. I want to breastfeed, I want it to come naturally. I don't want to be tied to my pump. I hate having to think about pumping when planning my day. I want to be able to feed my baby if we're out an about without having to think about packing bottles and extra milk.
And honestly, I *think* we can do it, but I truly have no idea where to start. She has occasionally nursed (never very well, but I'm hoping with practice it'll get better) and the last time was a couple weeks ago right at 4 months...but since then, the world has become very interesting and getting her to even attempt to latch is a nightmare. She pushes away, doesn't want to face me, etc. It breaks my heart.
I did head back to the lactation support group I first visited after having her, but the two consultants I'd seen were out and the subbing one was not interested in helping me as there were 4 new moms she needed to work with. Needless to say, she kind of sucked. I contacted someone here in town and I'm hoping to see her again one-on-one to see what we can do. For now, I'll keep offering the breast and hoping it'll click.
If you have any words of advice, comments, or thoughts you'd like to share, please do so! I could use all the advice and positive vibes you can give!
|And some days, she just gets it....|