::warning: female tmi included::
I'm throwing myself a pity party.
I'm bummed, I'm pissed, I'm hurt.
I was hoping to be announcing "I'm pregnant!" by this point, but God had other plans (or so I need to believe).
This sucks. In January, when we got the news that hubs was leaving for Texas, we threw all TTA (Trying to Avoid) measures out the window.
Then in February, Thad and I visited E in TX.
March went by without a visit, without any sex, and without a BFP.
And then came April. Oh dear Spring Break. You were perfect. My first ever OPKs came up super positive. We had sex. We had a lot of sex. We had so much sex I ended up with a UTI. (Eh, it was worth it.)
The timing was perfect. Perfect I tell you.
I felt it was God's plan.
I had good vibes. I had really good feelings about this cycle. I was convinced I was pregnant.
I dreamed of ways to tell the hubs, the family, and thought about a December 28th due date.
BUT I still didn't know if I was pregnant.
With my PCOS, I have a luteal phase (LP) of 10 days. So at 8 DPO, I started testing. (With Thad, I got a BFP at 11 DPO...granted it was so faint I had to wake the hubs by shoving a pee stick in his face.)
Day 8 - BFN.
Day 9 - BFN.
Day 10 - BFN and on and on it went.
But then something weird happened. Day 10 passed without a sign from AF.
This was abnormal. My cycle is religious. I ovulate, 10 days later the bitch shows her face.
Day 11, slight temp drop. Still above coverline. No sign of AF, hopes are wavering, but still high --- until 11 PM.
There it was. That little bit of light pink staring back into my face from that ever so soft piece of toilet paper. So light in fact, I convinced myself that it was implantation bleeding/cramping/dip in the chart. So light that overnight nothing happened.
To be extra safe today, I wore a tampon - after all, it was still there when I wiped this morning. (And Lord knows, I cannot risk getting blood all over my pants while teaching high school.)
Was it enough to fill the tampon? Uh, no.
But don't get too excited. Tonight....tonight we're bright red.